What is it that you're trying to prove?

WHAT IS IT THAT I'M TRYING TO PROVE?
i'm still online, right now, and i don't know why. maybe i'm trying to prove something to someone. now, that is lame. i don't want to be GAI!
i feel like a loser having to know that i'm keeping this red hot anger inside of me.. why wouldn't i? i'm always last in the list!!! i'm not trying to nag or what, but it's already a fact. an obvious, crystal clear fact! i'm just a loser...