all i wanted him to know

If only he could read my mind. If only I do not have to explain. If only he knew.
It hurts me so deeply seeing him going further away from me. But he will never understand.
All I wanted him to know is that I have always wanted him to be there when I really needed him. I needed him through the smallest and greatest events in my life. I needed him to be there when I wanted support. I wanted him to know that I have always wanted to be there for him through all his pain and sorrow. But he had never yet got it. The signs I have been showing to him all this while. He will never get it.. I somehow feel so deprived...