HaTe MaTe

o why is it me that you despise?
why am i the one surprised?
i have never tried to hurt you
nor have i ever had the thought
how is it that you see me through;
as a person who'd ever hurt you not?
i wanted to be in there
despite me being different
i thought that you would care
but now i do not dare
to be involved with any friends
because someone sould stare
why must there be hate?
i'm in my most ill state
because you lied about me then
how could you be a friend?
i thought highly of you
you told to them all the untrue
and now i'm lost to you
as in a court you'll grin to me
you've won without a thought
why is it there?
this feeling of despair?
i know i shouldn't care, o there,
there the deep despair
i hope that GOD forgive me
if i were to did HIM wrong
i hope that you'd forgive me
though my wrong, i did not long
to do to you, why you?
think again, my "friend"
if you would still
accept this will
i have to be straight
i don't want regret
so how do you want it?
-freakoutcuzimhere-